Sometimes I realize I’ve messed up

I sometimes look around and think, how did I get here? I’m a smart, loyal, active, healthy person but for some reason I’m surrounded by idiots and mistakes. Friends who are embittered over family finances, store owners that ignore my requests for meetings, disrespect my time, don’t reply to my notes/calls/emails. I am a talented parent, my daughter is thriving, I’ve been divorced, am remarried, but if you had me put odds on it lasting for another couple years I’d say it won’t. I have enabled too much. To too many. I do for others what they clearly won’t do unto to me. I sell myself short and lack as much self confidence as I should. I’d say I’ll change starting tomorrow, but theory is easy, reality is hard. I must do what is hard, instill the best idea I know: little by little a little becomes a lot. What else is there?